When asked what I wanted from life, I would invariably say, “Happiness that comes with success” .
Looking at my XAT result is one of the fondest memories of this New year. I wasn’t surprised; I had after all been expecting this much. However, the result means more than I can explain. It gave me a high! This, in turn, reinforced my belief in the philosophical goal of my life. Above all, the sense of accomplishment did wonders to my confidence.
In that hour, I underwent a complete transition. I lost all my inhibitions and cynicism. Suddenly peer approval ceased to matter. I could be whoever I wanted to be and do whatever I wanted to with my life and none could second guess me. I did things that I normally shy away from. This includes standing up for myself, openly asking for help and avowing to prepare so well that nothing would keep me from my goal, not even my not so favourable luck!
Good things started happening all of a sudden. I grew closer to old friends who had drifted apart and renewed contact with many acquaintances. I could identify the people who were genuinely happy for me and realized that they were the only ones who mattered. Their optimism about my chances rubbed off on me and added to my euphoria. Being someone who never got anything for free, I was basking in the glory of my small success.
I started writing this article because this is one the best weeks of my life. I have never been happier and more confident. I’m not daydreaming here. Still have miles to go before I sleep ( Before converting XL that is ? ) but I want to preserve this feeling and never let it go, in good times and bad. More than the result, I’ll cherish the winds of change it brought along inside of me.