Restlessness!
Opening and closing the lid of my laptop every
5 minutes. Browsing Youtube for one awesomely insane new song that can help me
pass 30 minutes of my day replaying it over and over again. Picking up the
newspaper to flip to an article only to find it completely uninteresting.
I
wonder how I read through 2000 word articles with an artificial interest for
the interviews. And then I wonder a dozen more things. What will I do if the
result is positive,where I will go to celebrate, who will be the first person
with whom I will share the good news.
And what will I do if it is not what I want,
how much more panicky I will get, will I rather shut my phone off to get away
from the painful process of answering everyone who asks for my result in
negative.
Thoughts zoom in and zoom out, so many thoughts intersect with one
other for they come and go with a speed that can’t be described. With every
change in the first number in ‘dd-mm-yy’ representation of date there is an exponential
rise in the anxiety. Nothing but restlessness sums it all up in a single word.