Frustrated and I need some inspiration/advice

Hey guys,After reading the posts in this thread, i couldn't stop myself from writing this.I am a B.Tech(Mech), not from a top college, working in a big IT firm from last 2.5 years. Started preparing for MBA last year coz that was d only option i was left with. To be honest, i hate the kind of work i do in my company, i hate the politics, i hate everything here and my chair which i kick at least twice everyday is a proof of it.
I still remember d day when i got placed. I was d most happiest man on the planet. Drank full nite......... Now when i look back, i just feel "Was this i wanted in my life?" The answer is a big "NO".Right now, i am desperate to get into a b-school. I will be jubiliant if i get through but who knows i might be saying the same things and kicking my chair again after 3-4 years. But that doesn't stop me from trying.
I took 3 weeks sick leave before CAT. Everyone including my PL and AM knew that its for CAT preparation. I am sick n tired of their sarcastic comments now. They dont leave any chance to tell me that i am d most insincere guy.I just wanna walk up to them one day and throw my resignation on their faces. I dream of it everyday. Thats my biggest motivation. I had a breakup with someone whom i luvd so deeply in nov last year, just before the exams began. I dont blame her but i felt terrible at night. I cried, i drank, sometimes felt like ending my life. But something inside me stopped me from doing that. Something inside me tells me that i am born to do something big one day. If life gives me bad experiences, lets take revenge from life by being very happy.
If i get through, nothing better than that. If i dont, its not the end of road. Life is unpredictable. Who knows whats going to come your way. MBA or no MBA, life will go on. If not MBA, there will be some other way. But lets not kill our dreams just coz of a small failure.
P.S.--> Life is not about getting the best always, it's about giving your best.

Well, my story goes back to the year 2002, a grad from IIT CSE. I gave CAT 2002 little realizing its importance. Just gave it casually. Then, I got fooled that it is better to give CAT after 2 years work ex. Got into a company with 2 years bond in 2003. wanted 2 months preparation and i asked for leave, but they didnt provide me. so, i broke the bond and prepared for 2 months and got the calls from iim k,l. but, cudn't convert them.

Then, i worked for the next 1.5 years for CAT, always scoring more than 95%ile. This year CAT 2005 was the twister, since the focus changed from speed to accuracy. and i got the twist of my life with 33%ile in DI.

Then, all my plans got blank and i had to take up a job in May 2006. Then, again i worked for CAT again. This time again, i didn't secure into IIMs. In the meantime, i screwed up my technical skills and after 1 year of hard work, i was promised of team leader position in product based company. But, i was cheated due to some politics and in 2008, i had to leave my job for better prospects.

Then, came recession, lost my job and got into some contract job that didnt give boost to my technical skills. So, i planned to take once again for 2009 and worked day in and day out.

The competition has gone way beyond my expections and i dont know what my future lies now.

I didn't develop my technical skills, screwed up CAT and i am nowhere since the contract job has also ended. Now, after so many years, you can imagine where i am now. All my friends and my juniors are well settled and in good positions. I ditched plans to go abroad for further studies in 2003( bcoz i was depressed that my childhood sweetheart got married and i lost the meaning of life. and from then onwards as well, i didnt go abroad bcoz i had this sicko ideals of love for motherland which i regret now that i shud have gone abroad)

A grad from iit cse, with no strong technical skills, screwed up life. and suicide seems the only way for me. My life is completely messed up. I have plans to buy potassium cyanide for easy death from a well trusted resource. You can see how i am faring now.

My life is completely ruined.


Its very easy to preach than to practise.I am not the perfect person to give u any advice on this as i am in the same boat as yours. Rejected twice but still i have the fighting spirit.I am hellbent to join a top MBA college(if not IIM).Rejection hurts very badly and it ruins the complete attitude for a period of time but why dont u see the history.Its full of people who failed umpteen times and finally succeeded .It was all because of their attitude and will-power.why do you think CAT is the only way to be prosperous??Look around you and u will see numerous people who are propserous but they didn't clear CAT.Again, failure doesnt mean u r less intelligent than others (which u have already proved by joining IIT).Its just that we miss some coordination or link between our strengths and weakness which kills us.Most of the serious aspirants of MBA dont give preference to their job and hence development of job skills happen to a certain limit (like me and you), so stop worrying about that.The competiton this year was really way tougher than previous years.Why dont u see the future ahead?Now since the recession is over, i dont think next season will be like this and i think it should be on the easier side. Try to keep yourself busy in whatever u like, be it friends, driving, games or anything for that matter.Dont think unnecessarily.Try to find out a job (using your contacts) or think of starting a business. You can become a faculty in CL,TIME or any coaching institute for that matter.It will give u money as well as a sense of satisfaction that u r working for yourself and not for some gaddamn company.This way u will be in touch with your studies too.I am sure it will help you a lot. try meditation too. It helps but for godsake never ever think of committing an act like suicide.I am sure you are braveheart and BRAVEHEARTS NEVER SUICIDE. feel free to pm me if u have some specific queries or any comments to make.

hi i m Mohil. doing b.com tax final year frm rennisa.my aggr. till second year was 51%. My counsellors are suggesting me to do mba in marketing... bt others say tht der is no scope in marketing. u hav to travel here nd der for marketing nd all... i m vry gud in computers. my frends keep telling me tht u shuld go in computer field.. wat shuld i do in dis case i m nt able to decide... pls suggest me. vl b waitin for ur suggestions.
thanx

hi i m Mohil. doing b.com tax final year frm rennisa.my aggr. till second year was 51%. My counsellors are suggesting me to do mba in marketing... bt others say tht der is no scope in marketing. u hav to travel here nd der for marketing nd all... i m vry gud in computers. my frends keep telling me tht u shuld go in computer field.. wat shuld i do in dis case i m nt able to decide... pls suggest me. vl b waitin for ur suggestions.
thanx

hey mohil all i c in ur post is u swayin according to ppl sayin
like ur counselor sayin dis is bad n ur frens sayn sumthin is gud
plz take sum time out fr introspection n make ur own decision
it may take sum real gud introspection...think it out wat is it dat u hav always liked
wats ur passion....wat is it dat u like doin..thru ur hobbies u l get sum inclination atleast

as for others tellin u always remember
"Advice should be taken from everybody but the decision should be yours "
MOHIL THAKUR Says
hi i m Mohil. doing b.com tax final year frm rennisa.my aggr. till second year was 51%. My counsellors are suggesting me to thanx


Firstly Stop listening to People!! I will tell you why, If you do MBA in Marketing and do not succeed then the people who said you to do MBA will say you should have done Computers and Computers people will say you should have done something else.

" Do not become football of other opinions"
Do what you want too. Seeing your aggregate it seems that you don't have much interest in your graduation stream. Find something interesting to do.
There are so many kinds of jobs you can do.The world has so many options open.Gather information and see if the work interests you and then do the work.
Regarding MBA in Marketing, how can there be no scope?? As long as consumers are there someone has to market the products.
As Nikhil above mentioned try to introspect and see what you are good in.
I am sure you will find many interesting facts about yourself.
All the best:cheerio::cheerio:
Well, my story goes back to the year 2002, a grad from IIT CSE. I gave CAT 2002 little realizing its importance. Just gave it casually. Then, I got fooled that it is better to give CAT after 2 years work ex. Got into a company with 2 years bond in 2003. wanted 2 months preparation and i asked for leave, but they didnt provide me. so, i broke the bond and prepared for 2 months and got the calls from iim k,l. but, cudn't convert them.

Then, i worked for the next 1.5 years for CAT, always scoring more than 95%ile. This year CAT 2005 was the twister, since the focus changed from speed to accuracy. and i got the twist of my life with 33%ile in DI.

Then, all my plans got blank and i had to take up a job in May 2006. Then, again i worked for CAT again. This time again, i didn't secure into IIMs. In the meantime, i screwed up my technical skills and after 1 year of hard work, i was promised of team leader position in product based company. But, i was cheated due to some politics and in 2008, i had to leave my job for better prospects.

Then, came recession, lost my job and got into some contract job that didnt give boost to my technical skills. So, i planned to take once again for 2009 and worked day in and day out.

The competition has gone way beyond my expections and i dont know what my future lies now.

I didn't develop my technical skills, screwed up CAT and i am nowhere since the contract job has also ended. Now, after so many years, you can imagine where i am now. All my friends and my juniors are well settled and in good positions. I ditched plans to go abroad for further studies in 2003( bcoz i was depressed that my childhood sweetheart got married and i lost the meaning of life. and from then onwards as well, i didnt go abroad bcoz i had this sicko ideals of love for motherland which i regret now that i shud have gone abroad)

A grad from iit cse, with no strong technical skills, screwed up life. and suicide seems the only way for me. My life is completely messed up. I have plans to buy potassium cyanide for easy death from a well trusted resource. You can see how i am faring now.

My life is completely ruined.





Dude Nothing like that. Everything is temporary . I too voluntary quit my job in Aug 2009. Here are my rejections in chronicle order untill now - IRMA , IIFT , SIBMP,SIBMB,SCMHRD, XLRI (BOTH cources) , XIMB , GIM
I know reading inspiration stories are pleasant to read but pain can be understood only by the person who is currently undergoing through. Biggest death is the death of hope my friend. Please revitalize yourself , breath into a new life . There is nothing wrong in keeping aspirations high but one should be practical / down to earth as well . All cannt go into IIMS . I am not saying that you cannt try again but I think you have given your honest try for it . Friend Plz Plz Plz fill forms apart from elite ones ( There are still dates for few). Come out of depression Plz , talk to someone with whom you are close . Embrace life. You just can nt waste your life by some "easy death" . You have to give some good human resources back to this planet as well :cheerio:
Best of luck!

Im guessin my IIT grad friend here is logical enough to understand that suicide is not just the end of your life but also your family.

Dear Friend...

1.) I am assuming you have worked hard for getting into IIT and now completed the course..not everybody can buddy..you are talented enough...

2.) IIT's and IIM's don't get you anywhere,its you who has to move your ass and do the right thinking and move on..

3.) Reading what you wrote, I feel you are a very emotional person, don't be so weak buddy, gather your act, don't let people take you for granted and drag you where they want.

You are obviously running behind a rosy dream of life after IIM's..i am not too sure if its going to be any better,there would be the same working environment,with as ambitious ppl trying to put you down(bring themselves up) with some politics. Look back my friend, you missed something or a talented person like you would have never been this miserable.

4.) I would have tried to wake up the next morning has a total revived person, responsible, courageous, ready to take on the real world...
f*** the IIM's, move on....take a fresh job and show them what you've got in you...

This is it...DO IT..LIFE DOESN'T START AFTER IIM's, YOU ARE LIVING IT NOW...

Dabbawallah's were called to HARVARD...duh...

ALL THE BEST !!

YOU CAN GET INTO IIM's, but please lose this attitude...
hope this post was not off topic...if at all it may please be deleted.

Firstly Stop listening to People!! I will tell you why, If you do MBA in Marketing and do not succeed then the people who said you to do MBA will say you should have done Computers and Computers people will say you should have done something else.

" Do not become football of other opinions"
Do what you want too. Seeing your aggregate it seems that you don't have much interest in your graduation stream. Find something interesting to do.
There are so many kinds of jobs you can do.The world has so many options open.Gather information and see if the work interests you and then do the work.
Regarding MBA in Marketing, how can there be no scope?? As long as consumers are there someone has to market the products.
As Nikhil above mentioned try to introspect and see what you are good in.
I am sure you will find many interesting facts about yourself.
All the best:cheerio::cheerio:

hey thanx guys.. vl move on nd try to find sumthing of my intrest. can u suggest sumthing for computer stream. coz thts wer my intrest is. thanx for all of ur suggestions
hi i m Mohil. doing b.com tax final year frm rennisa.my aggr. till second year was 51%. My counsellors are suggesting me to do mba in marketing... bt others say tht der is no scope in marketing. u hav to travel here nd der for marketing nd all... i m vry gud in computers. my frends keep telling me tht u shuld go in computer field.. wat shuld i do in dis case i m nt able to decide... pls suggest me. vl b waitin for ur suggestions.
thanx


Hi there!
I want to chip in coz i am also from commerce background.I think this post of mine should help u.Read it before u take concrete decisions relating to ur career so that u dont repeat my blunders.ATB.
http://www.pagalguy.com/forum/prep-resources/2791-coaching-classes-for-cat-37.html#post1844356

The more i read the more i get certain that students in India don't choose a stream because they like the stream or things related to it, but they do it for ulterior or most of the times, even unknown motives and this becomes the harbinger of future trouble, the seedling that grows into poison ivy.

Please guys, Think about what you are going to choose in life, remember education is just a tool to get what you want, its not an end in itself. it's at best a very fast car, but a very fast car won't do anyone any good unless you have a driver who knows where to drive it to.

pay heed to my post and i am sorry if sound like a grand-pa.

Same here guys....I am in the same boat as u r...or even worse.I am simple computer science graduate frm DU got job in Infy in 2008 and was on top of the world joined Infy in August got training in mysore 4 two months and was posted in Pune...suddenly resession stepped in was on bench 4 10 months although I was the batch top performer in Infosys Training program.Finally decided to quit job and give CAT 2009 which turned out to be a complete fiasco.....others all rejects also given atleast 7-8 Bank PO exams not cleared even one....m also planning to commit suicide in case my CAT result also turns me down as I have no option left....

sonugulati Says
Same here guys....I am in the same boat as u r...or even worse.I am simple computer science graduate frm DU got job in Infy in 2008 and was on top of the world joined Infy in August got training in mysore 4 two months and was posted in Pune...suddenly resession stepped in was on bench 4 10 months although I was the batch top performer in Infosys Training program.Finally decided to quit job and give CAT 2009 which turned out to be a complete fiasco.....others all rejects also given atleast 7-8 Bank PO exams not cleared even one....m also planning to commit suicide in case my CAT result also turns me down as I have no option left....


Do you realise how silly this sounds? Options are aplenty. You are taking failure badly. Nothing to do with options

Many people are in a position just like yours(including myself, but I'm not even getting into that), but they decide to fight it out. Life's not a computer that you Alt+Ctrl+Del every time things go in a downward spiral.

Learn and adapt yourself.
sonugulati Says
Same here guys....I am in the same boat as u r...or even worse.I am simple computer science graduate frm DU got job in Infy in 2008 and was on top of the world joined Infy in August got training in mysore 4 two months and was posted in Pune...suddenly resession stepped in was on bench 4 10 months although I was the batch top performer in Infosys Training program.Finally decided to quit job and give CAT 2009 which turned out to be a complete fiasco.....others all rejects also given atleast 7-8 Bank PO exams not cleared even one....m also planning to commit suicide in case my CAT result also turns me down as I have no option left....

dude lyf is all about expecting the unexpected, if u give up even before getting into a B-school then how will u over come the pressure one has to go thru during the session and after tht. Managing people and responsibilities is not that simple. The mark of a successful person is resilience and one who gives up is the real loser.So dont think of something foolish instead act in a mature manner. I knw its hard, i m in the same boat too but i think its not that big a deal at all considering that i gave my best and will keep giving my best. As of now go and unwind yourself....go catch a movie or hang out with frnds do somethings which will make u happy. Take lyf seriously but not too seriously....

Hey puys.. This is for those who are feeling low. Cheer up!!
(I have edited the lyrics to change the focus of song from love to life.. My fav one..)

"That's The Way It Is" By Celine Dion(Titanic fame)

I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what you're going through
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called life

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Success comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way, yeah

So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called life

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Success comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Cause life's gonna conquer it all, all

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Success comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

That's the way it is
That's the way it is, babe
Don't give up on your faith
Success comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is.

Please google song to listen to it!!


And remember-
"Patjhad(autumn) ke baad aayenge din bahar ke.... Jeena kya jeevan se haar ke"

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agar ab kissi ne yahan suicide karne ki baat ki toh unhe narak se dhund kar laaunga aur itna maarunga ki suicide ke spelling bhi bhool jaaoge

puys,
although i am famous on this forum as JBR (you know what it means ;))...
still I'd not indulge in much gyan sharing and Pravachans as you will feel fed up...

one thing i like to mention here...
"You all are blessed, believe me!!! You will take some time to realize that; once you do, you will be thanking God for the same and may be me too from a little corner of your heart."

enjoy your life puys, you won't get it again. 😁

sonugulati Says
Same here guys....I am in the same boat as u r...or even worse.I am simple computer science graduate frm DU got job in Infy in 2008 and was on top of the world joined Infy in August got training in mysore 4 two months and was posted in Pune...suddenly resession stepped in was on bench 4 10 months although I was the batch top performer in Infosys Training program.Finally decided to quit job and give CAT 2009 which turned out to be a complete fiasco.....others all rejects also given atleast 7-8 Bank PO exams not cleared even one....m also planning to commit suicide in case my CAT result also turns me down as I have no option left....


dude,suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.How can u even think of it. what abt ur loved ones.would u let them down by such a cowardly act.keep believing in ur dreams and one day they will come true.

hi ...its my first post ..i m in truble an in dipression ...i give my cat 2 nd tym ..apart frm cat i give all entrnce exam ..bt i cudnt do well .......now i hav jst a liTtil hope with cat reslt ...i m very frustrated.
in 14 th march i give my last entrnce exam MFC.my confidence is dwn to earth.actuly my prblm is diffrnt,i love a girl an i wan to marry her.whn one day i prposed her she said it is posible only whn if u will take admission in a good colog....i m in tnsn .pls suggst me wat i do ???/pls pls pla help me ......

hello frnds we r all face same prblm .....bcs lyf is nt a milky cake.bt suscide is nt d solution of our prblm.a man reborn in a form of human being after a very very long tym .lyf is a god gift ...yaa its rite we face a lot of trble in our lyf..bt sucide is nt d solution................so yar dnt think abt sucide ...if love ur parrnts

hi ...its my first post ..i m in truble an in dipression ...i give my cat 2 nd tym ..apart frm cat i give all entrnce exam ..bt i cudnt do well .......now i hav jst a liTtil hope with cat reslt ...i m very frustrated.
in 14 th march i give my last entrnce exam MFC.my confidence is dwn to earth.actuly my prblm is diffrnt,i love a girl an i wan to marry her.whn one day i prposed her she said it is posible only whn if u will take admission in a good colog....i m in tnsn .pls suggst me wat i do ???/pls pls pla help me ......

dude,
i can slam you hard on this very post...but i won't!!!
just 22 years old and such a big load of troubles...?
i know that's what you are thinking, go and see the world around you...
people have major troubles than you have here...

let me show the worst case scenario...
you go to a good MBA college and continue with your GF in a long distance relationship...
she dumps you saying that you don't give her appropriate amount of time...which any girl demands...
then what will you do?

now think of other case, you don't make into any B school this year.
then she will dump you saying that you didn't succeed.
now, what will you do?

think!!!

not able to think anything????

you won't be able to think here because of your heart acting here instead of your mind.
ask yourself, why do you want to do an MBA?
ask yourself, why is that girl that important to you? and how important is she?
doesn't she seem materialistic to you? at least i think in that way!
so weigh your options and act accordingly.
you have a whole life in front of you and may be your parents heavy expectations on your shoulders too.
don't act foolish. think using your brain.

enough of gyan now.
i am really sorry, if this blunt post of mine hurts you. but you will have to accept that life is much more blunt than this post.

PS: avoid using SMS language, it is difficult to understand.